musings.

life...

what to say.
sometimes things go your way and sometimes they dont and there is nothing you can do about it.

lately there has been so much to think about it seems impossible to pick a spot to start at. you know that feeling when your mind is going a million trillion miles an hour and you can't slow it down even for a second to try to fuction normally or even sleep? well welcome to my brain's daily life. i wish life wasn't so complicated or sometimes i find myself wishing to go back in time.
but then i think of everything in the current light and how the past has only helped to make me a stronger person today, which is a good thing, but it doesn't make it any easier at times. it doesn't mean you won't have bad days where you hurt like hell and just feel like dying or sleeping your life away. those days are bound to come for everyone sooner or later, but it is what we do with those days and how we choose to deal with them that really matters.
what it comes down to is that we are all broken people and struggle with so many things, but that doesn't mean we have to be alone. there is One who always promises to be there for us even when it seems impossible, One who will never judge us for our faults or wrongdoings. God is there and His love is so unbelievable that we don't even deserve it in the first place, yet he has this amazing grace that readily welcomes us back when we have been astray.
i am so incredibly thankful for this because i am by no means perfect and i know for a fact that there are many things in my life i wish i could take back or do-over. but then it comes back to the fact that within Christ we are made new and you can start over with Him and He still loves you just the same.
today a friend showed me a verse that was very applicable to how i have been feeling lately and i really appreciated it. the verse is Psalms 38 : 17-18....

"the righteous cry out and the LORD hears them, he delivers them from all their troubles. the LORD is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit."

this is only proof that whatever we go through in life, Jesus walks right beside us and carries us through everything. though it won't always be easy, it is so comforting to know that you don't have to go it alone. that thought alone is what is getting me through. whatever we do, WE ARE NOT ALONE. this is way more than our pathetic human existence ever deserved, yet God gave us His unconditional love and devotion expecting nothing from us in return but to love Him. that is so incredible awesome and i can't even understand it myself.

those are my current thoughts for tonight, but seeing as life (school) still has to go on, bed is calling my name. more to come.

standing in awe,
annie em.

one day.

So....
It's been awhile I have noticed since I last posted something, so I figured that it was about time to write about something (even if it really isn't that interesting...I really need to make this a more exciting blog I'm thinking).
ANYWAYS
I am currently sitting in the BC (Brushaber Commons) building listening to my 80's playlist, drinking hot apple cider and putting off the reading for my next class which is Art History, one of my personal favorites (today is my art day). Today is a pretty busy day as are most that I ususally experience these days. I can't even breathe sometimes because I go from one thing to the next. Its quite dizzying really.
I am feeling particularily excited about life right now and I'm not completely sure as to why...but hey it's a change from the past few weeks so I'll take it. I finally caught up with most everything and I actually got NINE hours of sleep one night, which is practically one reason for life to improve all by itself.
Hmmmm
I'm thinking that I want to post some pictures, so I think I will...




This is the art project that I did from last weekend. Its not my best work, since I had only about an hour and a half to create it in. The whole point of it, was that it was supposed to be a texture drawing (I kind of made up my own set of directions..ha). But at any rate...
The picture is of a little owl statue that I have in my room here at school and my best friend Jordan has the other one, so they are out friendship owls. I really love it...I will take a picture of the real thing and put it on here later. Well I'm gonna run.
Goodbye,
annie em.

before the storm.

This weekend is going to be insane. I am working and I have so much homework it is coming out my ears! UGH. But at least then I will be caught up with everything hopefully. Oh and I am going home for the first time in awhile so that should be interesting too...

Well we will see. I hope I survive.

Ah,
annie em

i'll look after you.

I have to say that I am a huge fan of this weather.
I love the cold and the wind and everything.
However, I am always very cold.
Example.

Last night, INSIDE my room, I had on a tee shirt, a pullover sweater AND a hoodie. Plus then add a blanket and some hot tea. After all that you would think I would be at least a little warmer, but that was not so. I was still freezing cold. I'm convinced that Lissner hates its residents because they won't turn on the freakin heat. AGH!

Oh well, at any rate, I love snuggling up in blankets, so this will be perfect.

Anyways, right now I am chillin in the 3900 grill in the BC (Brushaber Commons) building before my next class, Art History. I love Tuesdays and Thursdays because they are my art days. One can never have too much art, I am convinced. But I'm sure other people would beg to differ.

Looking ahead, it is going to be a very long homework filled weekend...mainly due to my own fault (I haven't done my math homework at all this week). So really I have brought it upon myself. Joyous day. However, I am going to try and get one good blog in this weekend that contains more than the mere details from my life. I'm thinking maybe a music or art blog. Hmmm...

Well we will see what happens.

Happy rainy & windy day,
annie em.