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Should've kissed you there, I should've held your face, I should've watched those eyes instead of run in place.
I should've called you out, I should've said your name, I should've turned around, I should've looked again.
But oh, I'm staring at the mess I made, I'm staring at the mess I made, I'm staring at the mess I made.
As you turn, you take your heart and walk away
Should've held my ground, I could've been redeemed for every second chance that changed its mind on me.
I should've spoken up, I should've proudly claimed, that oh my head's to blame, for all my heart's mistakes.
But oh, I'm staring at the mess I made, I'm staring at the mess I made, I'm staring at the mess I made.
As you turn, you take your heart and walk away.
And it's you...
and it's you...
and it's falling down
As you walk away
And it's on me now
As you go...
But oh, I'm staring at the mess I made, I'm staring at the mess I made, I'm staring at the mess I made.
As you turn, you take your heart and walk away.
And it's falling down as you walk away and it's on me now as you go...
But oh, I'm staring at the mess I made, I'm staring at the mess I made, I'm staring at the mess I made.
As you turn, you take your heart and

walk away.

the whole wide world is mine.

i'm in the BC, which has become like my second home in a way. i have been here since approximately 11 this morning trying to do my hw, but kind of failing. at least i got caffeine to help and after this i SWEAR ill go do my hw (which is a 10 page research paper). i dunno what i will do the rest of the day. probably go to bed at like midnight cuz i'm trying to be like a normal person and actually get some sleep for once.

random things

- my id has broken and will not let me into lissner, but it works for everything else like market and checking out stuff from the library...im mystified

- i feel so much better about life

- i am in love with angels & airwaves. and jeremy messersmith. and kaisercartel.

- pride and prejudice is about the best movie known to man

- i found out i have a job over christmas break..yay money....
- i need to figure out a place to go over spring break (im NOT staying here)
- turtle mochas save my life.

- im doing this thing called desert-less december. man did i pick the wrong month to do it...

anyways,
only 13 more days until freedom (also known as christmas break). i cannot wait. i plan on doing a bunch of art to make up for a whole semester that was artless. tear tear.

"the view from where i sit is rather gray..."

well, i think that is enough procrastinating for now..i should prolly go get to work..for real this time. seriously.

life is an adventure so go and live it,

annie em

a new light.

So

This week i asked God to reveal Himself to me and help me get through some tough issues in my life and I have to say that i feel utterly blessed by Him.

It is encouraging to me to know that He is there for you no matter what.


amazed,
annie em

stress level: moderate to high

although less stressed than the beginning of this week, my stress level is probably still unhealthily (spelling?) high...
but such is life i suppose.

to say the least i am accopmplishing some hw and feeling better about a presentation that i have to give on Friday. things are improving little by little.

i like not being in Lissner for hours on end, instead i stay in the academic buildings until they kick us out. i rather like it a lot. its so much better and my focus goes up ten million percent. its better that way when i only go back there to sleep...
besides then i actually see people i dont usually see floating around the buildings

another good thing about tonight; no work. hallelujah.
bad thing: not enough sleep....

countdown until hell is over... apx 15 days i think.

slightly frantic,
annie em

new beginning...

DECEMBER 1st...

what the heck?
where has the time gone?!
its seems like just yesterday that i was bored everyday at home during the summer...i just dont understand it.
i guess what they say is true. as you get older time only seems to pass faster and faster. yikes! this scares me a bit.

well i should probably be in bed but the fact of the matter is that i am so used to staying up late that i have kind of screwed myself over when it comes to going to bed at a decent hour. i decided that i could be totally fine with being nocturnal. but as the world has it, that is not very plausable. oh well.

i guess i will probably go to bed now. and get a whole four hours of sleep...yay...
at least i got 9 last night to make up for it.

over and out,
annie em.

el fin.

I AM DONE!
all caught up with my past portfolio drawings!
YESSSSSSsssssssss

but...

now i have to work on my current assignments for this week.
it just never ends does it?

dreary sunday...

its the end of november almost. how time seems to fly by. i look back and wonder where the semester went...but at the same time it seems so long ago that i was bored every day of the summer, sitting around just waiting for something to happen. i dont completely understand it, but maybe we're not meant to grasp that concept i just dont know.

this weekend turned out a lot better than i would have thought (even though it was spent at home) brielle came over and me, her and steph watched movies last night. can i just say that johnny depp is frickin sexy as edward scissorhands...

odd, but true

i have no idea why i think that but i do.

anyways...

me and bri stayed up super late catching up and talking about life and such. i always have such good conversations with her and it only makes me miss my best friend that much more when i am at school.

now im just kind of bumming around the house (i should be starting my last drawing soon, but i needed to write before i did anything else.

random new things...

major: art (studio emphasis?)

minor: spanish / journalism

current favorite movie: elf, yes man or edward scissorhands (could those be more different?)

to say the least i cannot wait to get back to school. sometimes i cant stand being here at home. i wish i could take the things i really missed back to school with me...like ross and steph. and maybe sammy. then i wouldnt need to come back home ever at all.

i cant wait until i can move out and be on my own. it sounds like heaven right about now. i wouldnt mind moving half way across the country either...or world for that matter. i want to be my own person and find who i am more than anything. sometimes its so overwhelming that i dont know where the heck i am going in life or what exactly i am going to do. but then again at the same time its kind of cool that im just taking life as it comes. i guess we will see. there is so much yet to come and so much that i want to accomplish.

well, this was a random post if i ever saw one. i guess thats what happens when you stay up too late and are trying to put off massive piles of homework (im sensing a pattern...) anyways, i suppose its time to 'do work' as my friend Justin would say. im out.

grey,

annie em.