introvert.

today is christmas eve.
but it doesnt really seem to feel very Christmas-y. every year since my grandpa died we have had xmas eve at Oma's (german for grandma) house. but the snow, even though it put me in a good mood, changed our plans. so its at our house for the first time in years. its weird.
anyways
i am hiding in my room because i seem to find that that works better than socializing right now. i wouldnt call myself an introvert, because i really do like being around ppl, but lately i have just wanted to be more by myself. and perhaps this adds more to the fact that it doesnt seem like christmas. where has all the joy gone?

this is it,
annie em