so today i got a wonderful tiny package in the mail containing the newest member to my family!

explanation....

i collect stuffed animals (yes i really do) and i call them my children hence also making them my family. now we are up to five kids and the newest could be by far the cuteest. he is a lil owl! and i am very proud. no names yet tho...any ideas? alright well now that it is official i am a huge dork i can get to it;

first things first-playlist for the day...

1. "idle and waiting" - umbrellas

2. "breakdown" - mae

3. "stolen" - dashboard confessional

4. "the attic" - fair

5. "black leaf falls" - sea wolf

6. "the haunting" - anberlin

so i have been thinking i want to become a youtuber. so tomorrow i am going to make my first video for my channel (i only have 1 other video right now) to jump start my new career as a 19 year old who isnt going to school for awhile. oh thats right im taking next semester off for anyone who didnt know already. .yep.

i'll post the link on here tomorrow for my channel so you can follow if you should so desire.

so for now i leave you with this videooo!

i agree,

annie em.

song of theee day: "come back when you can" by barcelona. heaven to your ears (even if it is a bit cliche with the lyrics...)

i am reminded of why i love music so much. because when all else fails at the end of the day a song can help to ease whatever it is that has caused you trouble in the first place. sometimes the fact someone else is singing the exact words you feel is comforting. they put into words what you might not be able to.

well thats all i got tonight; my brain is going dead at this hour i fear

night world,

annie em

extension.

that has nothing to do with anything except that i find it funny.

anyways so lets see...today was thrilling, i worked at pottery barn and am currently being lazy at home (one of the best things to do anyways).

tomorrow i work (but at costco this time) and buying hair extensions i think. oh and going to the bank, it was important you knew that.

well dont i live a thrilling life? anyways lets see.......

SO

there is this pretty sweet website that i discovered (don't know how) that has inspirations for rooms! well you can guess if i work at pottery barn that this would be like a drug to me since i am obsessed with design.

http://www.houzz.com/

that is the link. it shows rooms of all kinds and you can make your own lookbooks. i just redid my room, yet again so it was fun to take inspiration not only from my work but that website as well.

so random thing number two is done, so now we need a third. welllll another link (there seems to be a trend today) that you could follow is as follows.....

http://lookbook.nu/

its also another one of my favorite sights for inspiration.

ahhhh well it seems that inspiration is the key tonight although i dunno what the video inspires you to do...paint your face boys and girls.

inspired,

annie em.

la musica.

wellllll i just couldnt keep myself away from blogging another blog because i have so neglected it for such a long time (for which i am very sorry, dear blog). a n y w a y s

MUSIC

consumes my life and makes me happy SO

we are going to do a little list of a collection of my favorite songs from 2010.

hereeee we go.

(these are, by the way, in no particular order because if i tried to do that...well...it would be too hard)

'fader' - the temper trap

'happier' - a fine frenzy

'no excuses' - air france

'you're a wolf' - sea wolf

'cosmic love' - florence + the machine

'coffeelocks' - gavin castelton

'numbers dont lie' - mynabirds

'chinatown' - wild nothing

'sweet disposition' - the temper trap

'first class riot' - the tough alliance

'skeleton boy' - friendly fires

'koe o kikasate' - bigbang

'bambi' - tokyo police club

'black dirt' - sea wolf

'the city lights' - umbrellas

'too many questions' - sam sparro

'golden years' - the russian futurists

'dance the way i feel' - ou est le swimming pool

'the ghost inside' - broken bells

'gutter' - paper route

'feel it in my bones' - tiesto feat. tegan and sara

'my time' - minus the bear

'super girl' - super junior

'everyday' - vetiver

'all alright' - sigur ros

'prince henry' - sohodolls

'final episode (lets change the channel)' - asking alexandria

'to plant a seed' - we came as romans

'west coast' - coconut records

'when i'm alone' - lissie

'walk like a gentleman' - eye alaska

'this love (will be your downfall) - ellie goulding

who am i kidding....i cant possibly make a list summarizing them all. it would be far too long to be a summary then. but i do feel confident i can narrow down a few good albums.

1. the temper trap - 'conditions

2. sea wolf - 'leaves in the river'

3. florence + the machine - 'lungs'

so while the top song list epically failed, the albums didn't! so there we have it.

music,

annie em

2011...

well here we are. it seems a new year is underway [finally]....

here is a smattering of random thoughts from 2010 before we pack it away for good.

while two thousand ten was definitely not the year i'd expected, it shall go down in history as one that forever changed who i am. it was a year where i grew up and learned a lot not only about myself but about others as well.

there are people who walk in and out of our lives. sometimes they stay for a long time/permanently and sometimes the time is rather short. i have come to realize that while it is hard to accept comings and goings they really can be for the better.

some relationships fall apart and we may not always be fortunate enough to know why or how, but everything has a purpose and everything has a reason. even though the reason is not always clear at the time, it usually has a way of revealing itself in the end. if you had asked me a year ago how i was feeling about my life i would have told you that i was renewed and ready to make better decisions. however, it was a naive thing to say at the time as it was more a hope than an actual truism.

i was hoping that i was ready to be renewed when in reality i still had 'skeletons in the closet' i needed to deal with before renewal could be reached. all this to say, a year later i feel as though i can finally say with confidence that i am renewed and ready to take on life. sometimes it takes awhile to 'wake up and smell the coffee' as some would say, but its better to realize sometime rather than never.

someone once told me i am like an owl...wise, but sometimes a bit slow in reaching the final decision/discovery. this rings true to some extent for often i know the right answer or what i should do but i always think i can fix things on my own or i ignore the problem altogether (terrible coping strategy by the way). my owl-like tendencies if you will are a gift in disguise i think and i plan on embracing this in the future.

all this to conclude, it seems i am at a crossroads. sometimes it feels as though parts of my past are surreal; almost like a dream, between reality and wishing. im not sure if its because i have focused so much on the here and now that the past has dimmed or if because i have changed so much the past no longer carries such relevance anymore. the person i am now and the person i was seem to clash and therefore force out those memories almost as if they didnt happen...how's that for twisted psychology?

anyways back to this supposed crossroads...the past is behind the future ahead. feeling slightly more optimistic than i usually do (which is inspiring, no?), it has been determined that 2011 will surpass 2010 in greatness. i feel this is a cliche phrase everyone says in the new year but i dont plan on letting that fade.

we constantly change as we go through life. events wear on us and shape us (sometimes forceably) into being the people we were destined to be. its hard as hell sometimes, but contributes to making us stronger in the end.

goodbye 2010, although you had your highlights, 2011 will beat you.

renewed,

annie em

l'automne

well

it seems that fall has forgotten that it is not supposed to be eighty degrees and sunny. seriously. i want to sun to go away and the dark depressing cold weather of the fall/winter to come.

anyways

aside from my rantings about how the weather needs to change i have decided to dedicate this blog to things that have recently inspired me the most in life...and also new things i have just discovered. ^_^

1. Courney Brims

she is an Australian artist and if you know me at all you know that above all, i love art and even more so art that is creative and slightly off-beat/unique. (also any art that has focus on slightly morbid qualities hehe). i admire her whimsical style for i havent found with very many other artists who portray that kind of subject matter. (i also love that she draws foxes and owl as they are two of my favorite animals.) needless to say she has become quite a fascination of mine...for more, go here

http://www.courtneybrims.com/

2. dark poetry

as it is coming to the darker season of the year, i find myself in a time of reflection...but then again i always seem to be in a time of reflection, so maybe it is just more exaggerated with this weather...

one of my favorite poems that i have read so far was penned by Lord Byron, and 18th/19th century romantic poet. i find myself liking these poems so much perhaps because i admire the fact that someone else might once have felt like i did and actually written something from their heart. here it is....

my soul is dark- oh! quickly string the harp I yet can brook to hear; and let thy gentle fingers fling its melting murmurs o'er mine ear. if in this heart a hope be dear, that sound shall charm it forth again: if in these eyes there lurk a tear, 'twill flow and cease to burn my brain.

but bid the strain be wild and deep nor let thy notes of joy be first: i tell thee, minstrel, i must weep or else this heavy heart will burst; for it hath been by sorrow nursed and ached in sleepless silence long; and now 'tis doomed to know the worst and break at once- or yield to song.

that is all for tonight, but the list will continue on !

happily,

annie em

ni hao

sooo....

the second week of school is well underway.

opinions...

i am not the biggest fan of my school. the people i have classes with are nice and so are my teachers, but i find the school itself is....well no university.

i could be much meaner about it, but its probably best not to be to descriptive. ^_^

anyways,

what saves me from totally quitting there are my language classes.

today alone, i had all three! it is quite the task to make my brain go from chinese to french to german all within 5 hrs of each other. but i figure that this will only make my brain better at thinking, so voila!

the only problem is that now my brain tries to think in 5 different languages. ha. fun right?

not to worry though, i actually really do like it.

it makes me realize how much i was not meant to live in the boring state of minnesota where no one ever does anything new, let alone learn a language (unless it is required). i really dont know why i never thought to do more languages before. the signs have been there all along!

in both college and high school spanish i was one of the only ones who truly loved learning and speaking the language. well i guess you know what they say...hindsight is 20/20...kinda makes sense.

anyways, at least i am on the right track now.

so as of now i have

english (i would hope) and

spanish

under my belt

and am learning

chinese

french

german

and want to eventually learn

japanese

korean

italian

hmmm so if i succeed i will be able to speak 8 languages...

sounds good to me! it will be a great aid in my ambitions to travel the world.

but for now its study study study...

and oh, study some more.

i dont mind it though because i am a dork and i think learning languages is fascinating and incredibly fun! estoy loca, no?

pues, ich must estudiar ahora (german and spanish put together hehe)

twill be an interesting night filled with french and chinese...how...odd

combinations,

annie em