pretend you're alive

Oh summer life, oh summer life, crawling with these worms, you're afraid of all their germs. oh bask in

life, oh bask in life, the weather gonna swallow you into the great divide, oh enjoy life, oh enjoy life,

climbing up those trees and breaking all your knees.

Watch angels in the morning become a devil's afternoon. I will panic in the evening underneath the

crashing moon. So fall in love while you can still hold your head up high, and pretend that you're alive

again. It's friends that leave you here in the end, so hold you head up high, and pretend that you're

alive again.

Now autumn brings the beautiful things, where all you give comes back to you like the crown upon my

king. Your life's a song, so sing along before the silence swallows you and leaves you like a pawn, watch

angels in the morning become a devil's afternoon, I will panic in the evening underneath the crashing

moon. So fall in love while you can still hold your head up high, and pretend that you're alive again.

It's friends that leave you here in the end, so hold your head up high and pretend that you're alive.

Your friends, now ghosts, are screaming "Bury us," they said, while panicking, my mind was broken.

more of my obsession

in a few weeks i am seeing these guys live...

i dont really know their stuff but i am excited nonetheless!

a bit about them...

the radio dept. is from sweden (a lot of good music seems to come from here) and

remains one of the biggest indie bands in the country

but no one has heard of them here go figure (most people in america seem to

have boring/bad music taste...not that i dont have my few guilty pleasure bands

but still, just saying...)

anyways the show is at 7th street entry (part of 1st ave.) and its acutally like 3 weeks i realized...

so im jumping the gun a bit but i couldnt wait! i love going to shows.

the last one i went to was last fall.

that one was the temper trap, delphic and hundred in the hands. actually ranks on top 5 shows i have been to believe it or not.

well it is creeping towards my bedtime as i do happen to have work tomorrow. blah.

adios,

annie em.

new songs...

'give me danger' or 'the rejection' by dangerous muse

'never follow suit' or 'heaven's on fire' by the radio dept.

'confusion girl' or '3 little words' by frankmusik

'night of the dancing flame' by róisín murphy

i shall expand later

^_^,

annie em

i'm going back home to the west coast.

recently as i have been thinking about life it has been decided with the help of my best friend ellie that we will be moving to the west coast one day after we graduate. i never have felt like i fit in here, so maybe there is hope for moving to another place. i have been out west several times and have loved it each trip.

this spring break we (ellie, her mum and i) are going to take a week long trip out to LA and then drive up the coast and end in seattle. i am excited not only to get away from here but also

to see a place where i could potentially end up in the future.

well i must run off to work, but here is one of my favorite songs, not surprisingly about the west coast!

enamored,

annie em

alice in wonderland.

it seems my creative side has done it again. the other day i had some friends over for a dinner party and it seemed we found ourselves in need of a centerpiece...so what better thing to do than design my own! it really was quite funny because it started out as just a centerpiece with a woodsy kind of theme but it turned into an Alice in Wonderland themed masterpiece!

designing this was actually quite fun. the pictures are hard to gain

the full effect but it was magical nonetheless!

[click pictures for larger view]

if i had to pick one word to describe myself or my style i think it could be classified a whimsical with a hint of darkness. exactly why i like alice in wonderland and other such things. so if you need any ideas sometime soon for a themed dinner, alice in wonderland is a great bet. just remember to find tons of mismatched teacups, some glitter and a hint of crazy

^_^,

annie em

ps...other whimsical things :

movie - penelope (personal favorite)

music video - 'walking on air' by kerli or 'tea party' defines the alice in wonderland part

it seems insomnia has taken its toll once again.

do you ever have those nights where your brain wont shut off no matter how hard you try? its like your brain decides to go over every decision, path or mistake that you have taken/made. all the would haves and could haves surface and come to haunt you.

why is it that the past can never simply stay in the past? it seems to find little ways to creep into the everyday present life and remind you of a former self. although that self may not be who you are anymore it still hurts to think about. memories are a curse and a blessing, but sometimes i do wish you could put them in a box and seal the lid shut tightly and only take them out when you want to see them.

no matter how much i want to change things or forget memories will always be there. it reminds me of the movie, eternal sunshine of the spotless mind. if you have never heard of it it is definitely worth watching. basically its about a relationship which did not last but the woman has decided to have all her memories of her ex erased. it brings up the interesting concept of what would happen if we could simply just forget or erase those memories? is it cheating or helping in the end?

i am undecided on this because part of me thinks that life was destined to happen the way it was even if you mess it up. another movie example (well i feel somewhat smart now) is the butterfly effect. he tries to go back and change the past but it doesnt work because life has a set course of events and you cant do one thing without affecting the other. again, while i am undecided i sometimes lean more towards the butterfly effect way of thinking.

well it seems we are nearing the two thirty mark sadly but i will leave you with a late night melancholy song.

"naive orleans" [acoustic version] by Anberlin (off their album 'Lost Songs')

something to consider on this dark and lonely night,

annie em.

ni hao,

sorry i have missed a few days! tis back to work for me today so im writing this before i have to leave...

sooo

youtube video is still not up because camera was dead x_x

disheartening eh? i got all excited only to be let down. but never fear that is why they created chargers!

song of the day (even tho its old):

"not good enough for truth in cliche"

by escape the fate

from the album 'dying is your latest fashion'

i might not seem the type to like screamo, or as it is more formally called, post hard-core music, but i like some of it quite a lot. but then again my range of music is very broad to start with so there we go!

maybe i should dedicate this to posthardcore music (lightbulb moment!)

SO new discoveries

Asking Alexandria - from britain, they are fairly new...key track : "final episode (lets change the channel"

We Came As Romans - i am missing there show this sat :/ key track : "to plant a seed" or "broken statues"

old favorites

Watchout! There's Ghosts - this band comprised of jordan blake, the screamer from a skylit drive.. key track : "i'll take famous murders for 500" or "never you" they are no longer in existence though which is very sad.

A Skylit Drive - my all time favorite i think. wires and the concept of breathing is the best album by far.

Escape the Fate - obviously, however not the new stuff, only old. i dislike craig mabbit as the leader

I Am Ghost - discovered by my best friend jordan. good stuff. key track : "our friend lazarus sleeps"

there are many more but just a few should suffice for people looking for some good stuff to listen to. hopefully camera will work soon so i can jumpstart my youtube career. also here's an idea..if there are any music genres you want me to write about explore tell me!

work calls,

annie em